December!

Merry Christmas Month!!!

It all starts now! The Christmas jumpers are out and people are putting up their trees. Suddenly everything looks better dressed in tinsel and we’re all frantically running around the shops.

ITS DECEMBER!!!!! I hope you all have an advent calender so that you can open a little door of magic every morning! Everything is becoming very very exciting!

I can almost feel the love and excitement around me, ahhhh Christmas!

I hope you all have the best Christmas ever!!!!

Trust Yourself

Over the past few weeks something really exciting has started working its way into my life, but with all great things comes doubts and nerves.

I’ve been pulled in a million different directions being told what I should and shouldn’t be feeling, and what I should and shouldn’t be believing. The opinions that seem the strongest and scariest are the ones that my heart doesn’t believe. I don’t know whether it doesn’t want to believe them or whether it actually doesn’t, but regardless, I’ve decided to listen to my heart.

I’ve spent my entire life caring more about what everyone else says than what I feel is right and its never worked out very well for me. This time is different, this time I’m taking control and everyone else can take their opinions elsewhere. I feel like this is the start of something great and I won’t let anyone push me around anymore.

Your own instincts should be the ones you trust and don’t let people run your emotions, sometimes you’ve got to stop trying to please everyone and actually think of yourself for once.

Not My Day

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This morning was erm, interesting!

I got myself up and dressed and my hair washed and my makeup done (not in that order XD) and I left the house. It was all downhill from there.

My bus was running late, great! So, I waited and waited for it and eventually it arrived. I got on and got comfy when….OH CRAP I LEFT MY NOTEBOOK AT HOME, AND MY MATHS HOMEWORK THAT IS DUE FIRST LESSON IS IN THERE!

The bus had already pulled away when the realisation sunk in, I was screwed. So I had to re-do my maths homework throughout my bus journey, that’s always fun.

Then when I got off my bus where I usually meet my friends, they’d already left me cause I was late so that was brilliant!

I walked off on my own to start the 30 minute walk that I had left to get to college…I got half way there when…

A SMUG LITTLE BIRD SAW ME AND THOUGHT I LOOKED LIKE I WOULD BE A BRILLIANT TOILET. Yes, I got pooed on by a bird. It was horrific.

I managed to get to college with 1 minute to spare before my Maths class started.

My morning was very eventful and unlucky, I’m glad that’s over!

Moving House!

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This is a complicated story…

For the past 5 years we’ve been renting, so I’ve lived in my childhood house which we owned, then we moved to a rented house for about 18months, and then to another rented house for 3 years and now we’ve moved into another rented house for about 5 months…

5 months? What’s the point? I know!

Basically, we decided a few months back that we wanted to finally own a house again and we found some houses that are currently being built and bought one (in the simplest way of putting it). The houses won’t be finished being built until February. Then, without even knowing anything about us moving, the landlords of our current home at the time, announced that they wanted to sell the house and they wanted us out in 2 months. Oh gosh.

So we have a temporary 6 month rent in this little house until February. However, we are basically living out of boxes because there’s not much point unpacking much, so yeah, there’s boxes everywhere! It’s crazy!

Everything has been so manic recently with starting college, the move, and I got a job at Primark! I started today, so that’s also been stressful to sort out

Crazy, crazy times! I hope you’re all doing well 😀

College?

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The Monday that has just gone marked my first day of college! It’s all very exciting and overwhelming with all the brand new experiences, people, opportunities, it’s crazy.

My first lesson was Computer Science, and it was weird enough that I didn’t have first period and so I didn’t have to be in college until 10am, but then walking in and having the teacher introduce themselves by their first name was even more weird.

As it’s Computer Science, you may have guessed that I’m the only girl in the class. This doesn’t bother me in the slightest. Majority of my classes are male dominated, as would be expected in Computer Science, Maths and Physics, Latin is the only one that isn’t!

I’ve found that even after two days, I feel like I’ve been sucked into a whole new universe. All the new people around and the fact that we all wear our own clothes, it’s weird not having everyone looking the same. So when you’re walking through the corridor you can judge exactly what people’s personalities are like and what subjects they’re taking from their clothes. The art students all wear really quirky clothes and you can almost instinctively get to know a person from their appearance. This does make me worry what people think of me but then again, I don’t really care.

If anyone is starting college soon, or has just started, or is starting next year, or whatever, and you’re worried about anything or want to find out some stuff then I’m always here to answer any of your questions (if I know the answer XD)!

Hosting your own party

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Honestly, I had a brilliant night, but the stress that comes with hosting your own party is insane!

I was constantly checking that nothing was getting broken and everyone was okay and there were enough drinks out, etc. etc.

However, everyone seemed to have a great night! I’m glad I hosted it, and I did have a good laugh.

The only damage that’s been done is:
The front of the speaker broke off but that can be fixed, someone smashed a mirror that we are getting rid of anyway, the knob on the light switch came off and someone spilt some coke on the carpet.

I don’t think that’s too bad from 40-or-so teenagers, I’m proud of my friends. I think that’s pretty civilised ahaha!

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NCS – Week 2

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I got back from week 2 of NCS yesterday and I can’t believe how amazing it was!

I overcame so many fears this week and really challenged myself to move out of my comfort zone! I don’t like talking in front of people or performing etc. But this week I did a solo lip sync, with back up dancers, dressed as Elsa, to Frozen – Let it Go, in front of 30 people! It was so amazing to get up there and face the fear and get over it! Then, the next day I stood up in front of a whole auditorium of people and presented a mock-game-show! I can’t believe I’ve done this!!

We have also been working with a care home and we’re fundraising for them next week! They were all so lovely! 100 year old Barbara was amazing!

I’ve got to know my team so much better and we’re going out for a cheeky nandos tonight! They’re like my family!

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NCS – Week One!

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As some of you will know from my previous posts, I’m currently doing NCS! I got back from week one yesterday and I can’t even explain how amazing it was!!!

I wish I had more pictures to show you but I honestly didn’t get the chance to take many. The amount of stuff we did was insane! We did absailing, rock climbing, team problem solving, archery, a big hike, meteor shower spotting, camping, canoeing and team challenges! That was all in the space of 5 days!!

Also, the fact that you don’t know anyone in your team when you get there makes the first day pretty awkward but by the end of the second day, you’ll feel like a family!

I hate talking in front of people, I get so nervous and I usually just can’t do it. But by the second evening, I was stood in front of my team, who I’d known for under 48 hours, in my pyjamas, and spoke about being accident prone. It was the best feeling ever!!

My high point of the week was when we all met up here on the camping night:

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And when it got completely pitch black there was a meteor shower! The sky was so clear and we all layed down and watch it together and it was just amazing!!

I can’t get over how awesome the past week has been! I love my team so much, the banter is so real and they’re all just lovely people!

I can’t wait for the next two weeks 😀

Waiting for Exam Results

Okay, so it’s 2:30am and I’m lying here, awake. Why? Because I keep playing over possible situations that could happen when I open my exam results in 15 days.

This isn’t the first time either. I’ve been having anxiety dreams of failing all of them and I’ve had sleepless nights. This summer is meant to be the best summer ever because I have so much time off, but all I’ve done is worry.

The worst part is that I’ve surpressed the thought of those exams and pushed them down so far that I can’t really remember them. I don’t know if I put enough work into them because I can’t remember. That just makes me doubt myself more and more!

This wait is slowly mushing my brain and it’s driving me insane! I feel like I never want to know those results, they can stay in that envelope!

If I don’t get the grades that I expect of myself it’s going to be the most heart breaking experience.

The Future Challenge

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I got nominated by the amazing Diversion3000! If you are not already following them then head over to their blog now because it’s amazing!!

Anyways, the Rules:

1. THANK THE PERSON WHO NOMINATED YOU!

2. SHARE 5 THINGS ABOUT YOUR IDEAL FUTURE: (job, kids marriage, travel…)

3. TAG 5 BLOGGERS TO PUT THEM UP TO THIS CHALLENGE!

4. LINK BACK TO Dreams and Movie Screens, the creator of this tag. Thank you for making this tag!

My ideal future consists of:

1) Studying Computer Science or something similar at a University in America!

2) Getting a job that I love doing, maybe linked with social networking.

3) Being surrounded by amazing and supportive friends and family.

4) Travelling to many different countries and experiencing many different cultures.

5) Having a couple of beautiful kids that make me a proud mother every single day.

I tag:

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