Friends

The older I’ve become, the more I’ve realised how important friends are and how important it is to have the best friends that you can.

In primary school, you have so many friends that you can’t count them all on one hand, it’s party time every single weekend with presents to give and party bags to receive, but they’re not all friends that are going to stick with you forever.

When you get to high school, you keep some of the friends you had in primary school, but others move on with their lives and you drift apart. This is also when you find a whole new set of friends and you all grow up together within the next five years.

Leaving school is probably one of the biggest shocks to your friendship circle. Whether your friendship group all splits off to different colleges and sixth-forms or not, you will most probably drift apart into new groups.

Coming to university, I’ve created a whole new set of friends who I adore and wouldn’t change for the world. Living in a completely different part of the country to all your friends at home, gives you the opportunity to learn who your true friends are. The ones that still make an effort to see you and keep in contact are the ones that you will treasure forever. There are friends that I expected to be in my life forever, who I have drifted apart from since starting uni.

Everything is always changing, but it’s okay to embrace the change.

Ellen x

My University Experience So Far…

I’m now coming to the end of my first year of university and it’s been interesting, to say the least. It hasn’t been exactly how I expected it to be.

For starters, I thought majority of my fellow students would be the same as me, straight out of a-levels and into uni, but most of them finished their a-levels at least 1 or 2 years ago and worked in-between. I partly wish I’d done this because then I would be able to enjoy my uni experience without having to manage a part-time job alongside. But unfortunately I’ve got to manage my university work, part-time job and social life, which is much crazier than I thought it would be, and it can all get a bit much sometimes.

Especially in the run up to deadlines and exams, it’s a very stressful time. It makes it so much harder to focus when you’re living with your friends. You’ve just got to put your foot down and try your best not to get distracted by everything around you.

But despite all that, I have made some amazing friends here who are like family now and I would change how this first year has gone for the world. Here’s to the next 3 years of this crazy life!

Ellen x

 

December!

Merry Christmas Month!!!

It all starts now! The Christmas jumpers are out and people are putting up their trees. Suddenly everything looks better dressed in tinsel and we’re all frantically running around the shops.

ITS DECEMBER!!!!! I hope you all have an advent calender so that you can open a little door of magic every morning! Everything is becoming very very exciting!

I can almost feel the love and excitement around me, ahhhh Christmas!

I hope you all have the best Christmas ever!!!!

Trust Yourself

Over the past few weeks something really exciting has started working its way into my life, but with all great things comes doubts and nerves.

I’ve been pulled in a million different directions being told what I should and shouldn’t be feeling, and what I should and shouldn’t be believing. The opinions that seem the strongest and scariest are the ones that my heart doesn’t believe. I don’t know whether it doesn’t want to believe them or whether it actually doesn’t, but regardless, I’ve decided to listen to my heart.

I’ve spent my entire life caring more about what everyone else says than what I feel is right and its never worked out very well for me. This time is different, this time I’m taking control and everyone else can take their opinions elsewhere. I feel like this is the start of something great and I won’t let anyone push me around anymore.

Your own instincts should be the ones you trust and don’t let people run your emotions, sometimes you’ve got to stop trying to please everyone and actually think of yourself for once.

Moving House!

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This is a complicated story…

For the past 5 years we’ve been renting, so I’ve lived in my childhood house which we owned, then we moved to a rented house for about 18months, and then to another rented house for 3 years and now we’ve moved into another rented house for about 5 months…

5 months? What’s the point? I know!

Basically, we decided a few months back that we wanted to finally own a house again and we found some houses that are currently being built and bought one (in the simplest way of putting it). The houses won’t be finished being built until February. Then, without even knowing anything about us moving, the landlords of our current home at the time, announced that they wanted to sell the house and they wanted us out in 2 months. Oh gosh.

So we have a temporary 6 month rent in this little house until February. However, we are basically living out of boxes because there’s not much point unpacking much, so yeah, there’s boxes everywhere! It’s crazy!

Everything has been so manic recently with starting college, the move, and I got a job at Primark! I started today, so that’s also been stressful to sort out

Crazy, crazy times! I hope you’re all doing well 😀

College?

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The Monday that has just gone marked my first day of college! It’s all very exciting and overwhelming with all the brand new experiences, people, opportunities, it’s crazy.

My first lesson was Computer Science, and it was weird enough that I didn’t have first period and so I didn’t have to be in college until 10am, but then walking in and having the teacher introduce themselves by their first name was even more weird.

As it’s Computer Science, you may have guessed that I’m the only girl in the class. This doesn’t bother me in the slightest. Majority of my classes are male dominated, as would be expected in Computer Science, Maths and Physics, Latin is the only one that isn’t!

I’ve found that even after two days, I feel like I’ve been sucked into a whole new universe. All the new people around and the fact that we all wear our own clothes, it’s weird not having everyone looking the same. So when you’re walking through the corridor you can judge exactly what people’s personalities are like and what subjects they’re taking from their clothes. The art students all wear really quirky clothes and you can almost instinctively get to know a person from their appearance. This does make me worry what people think of me but then again, I don’t really care.

If anyone is starting college soon, or has just started, or is starting next year, or whatever, and you’re worried about anything or want to find out some stuff then I’m always here to answer any of your questions (if I know the answer XD)!

Hosting your own party

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Honestly, I had a brilliant night, but the stress that comes with hosting your own party is insane!

I was constantly checking that nothing was getting broken and everyone was okay and there were enough drinks out, etc. etc.

However, everyone seemed to have a great night! I’m glad I hosted it, and I did have a good laugh.

The only damage that’s been done is:
The front of the speaker broke off but that can be fixed, someone smashed a mirror that we are getting rid of anyway, the knob on the light switch came off and someone spilt some coke on the carpet.

I don’t think that’s too bad from 40-or-so teenagers, I’m proud of my friends. I think that’s pretty civilised ahaha!

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NCS – Week One!

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As some of you will know from my previous posts, I’m currently doing NCS! I got back from week one yesterday and I can’t even explain how amazing it was!!!

I wish I had more pictures to show you but I honestly didn’t get the chance to take many. The amount of stuff we did was insane! We did absailing, rock climbing, team problem solving, archery, a big hike, meteor shower spotting, camping, canoeing and team challenges! That was all in the space of 5 days!!

Also, the fact that you don’t know anyone in your team when you get there makes the first day pretty awkward but by the end of the second day, you’ll feel like a family!

I hate talking in front of people, I get so nervous and I usually just can’t do it. But by the second evening, I was stood in front of my team, who I’d known for under 48 hours, in my pyjamas, and spoke about being accident prone. It was the best feeling ever!!

My high point of the week was when we all met up here on the camping night:

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And when it got completely pitch black there was a meteor shower! The sky was so clear and we all layed down and watch it together and it was just amazing!!

I can’t get over how awesome the past week has been! I love my team so much, the banter is so real and they’re all just lovely people!

I can’t wait for the next two weeks 😀

NCS is tomorrow!

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I applied for NCS in March and the 10th August felt like an age away. At that point I still had mock exams, final exams, prom and Tenerife before the 10th August! Now it’s tomorrow?

If you’re unsure what NCS is then you can read my previous post about it here!
Or desire4beauty is currently doing it and she’s made some posts about her experience!

I’m so excited but also so nervous! I get so awkward with new people and I just hope I can make a good first impression. As long as I get through the first day okay it should be all good from there. The amount of youtube videos I’ve watched, of people filming their own NCS experience to get a feel of what I’ll be up to, is insane!!

I’m sure everyone will be lovely and I’ll make some brilliant new friends! Plus I already know someone who’s going at the same time as me so that’s comforting 😀

Wish me luck! I’ll let you all know how week one goes at the weekend!

Hairdressers

As an awkward person by nature, situations like going to the hairdressers can prove to be a difficult ordeal for me.

You are sat in front of a mirror, forced to either seem vain by looking at yourself, creep the hairdresser out by looking at them or look like the local loon with your eyes closed. That’s only the first struggle!

Then they talk about what you want and if you can’t stand a firm ground, they will try to advise what would be right for you without really listening to what you’ve asked for. So it’s more common than not to come out feeling disappointed with the result.

Next, you get escorted over to the hair washing area where the sink will make your neck hurt, no matter what you do while someone massages your head. You have to either look at the hairdresser standing over you while they wash your hair or avert your eyes away and potentially seem rude.

As the cherry on top, when cutting your hair, the hairdresser will try and attempt awkward small talk such as:

“So what year are you in at school?” Does it matter?

“So what school do you go to?” Why do you want to know?

“Are you doing much today?” Stop judging my life of Netflix and food!

Although, it is a great feeling when you walk out and your hair is all new and you just feel great, so I guess it’s worth it!

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